I’ve decided to start a new series on my blog called Monthly Musings, where I will talk about what I’ve been thinking about during the month. August has been a busy month for me, with opportunities ending and beginning. I am going to be a second-year in college, which brings a new set of adventures and learning experiences.
August has also been a month of reflection for me, as I think about how far I’ve come in the past year. As I’ve written about before, high school was a challenging time for me. As I was figuring out who I was and what I was interested in, one thing never got resolved. Until now.
For most of my life I was trying out hobbies and interests, to see if they would ever be something that I wanted to devote much of my time and energy to. I tried countless things, including art, sports, performing, musical instruments, etc. With every one, I would give it a fair shot but never feel that passion and excitement that comes with finding talent. I was under the impression that everyone has a talent, and that you had to find it before you left high school so that you knew what direction your life was going in.
Fast forward to high school: I was still trying to find my “talent”. As I looked around me, it seemed as though everybody had found theirs. People who played sports, performed in the theater productions, excelled at academics and research, performed in the band and orchestra. I tried many of these, and never felt as though I truly fit in any of them. With every missed connection came the feeling that I was running out of options. To me, it seemed as though I wasn’t fit for anything and that I was someone who never found her talent.
As you can imagine, this was a very difficult way to go through life. With every new opportunity, I felt compelled to try and make it “the one”. This brought on a significant amount of stress that prevented me from enjoying my endeavors. By the time high school graduation came, I had a vague sense of my academic interest but no idea where my talent and passion fell. Then came the day that I stumbled upon the Pinterest page that changed my life.
I scrolled through countless pins about blogging, feeling an unexplainable urgency to learn as much as I could and give this a go. I didn’t know the first thing about starting a blog but, thanks to the wonderful blogging community, I was able to launch my site and start creating.
Writing for this blog has brought back memories of my love for writing that I had as a child. I used to write for fun, drafting stories and books about my life experiences. As time went on, this interest was put on hold and academics took priority. I learned how to write analytically, and never looked back at the creative writing path that I left behind. Blogging has brought back that creative spark, and I finally feel that drive that comes with finding passion and purpose.
As the new academic year is beginning, I wanted to write this post to let you know that finding your “purpose” before high school graduation (or even at any point in life!) isn’t the norm. Finding what you are passionate about is a journey that is different for everyone, and you should never lose faith that you will end up where you are supposed to be. Give your all in everything, but never force something to be more than what it is. Finding your passion often comes in unexpected ways, so always be up for trying new things. Though I knew nothing about blogging, I decided to explore this new interest and it has changed my life.
No matter where you are on your “life purpose journey,” I hope that you have a wonderful set of adventures and explorations! 🙂
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